It is me here again...=)
As time pass by,people have changed...Some changes are good,other kind of changes are fine,but the rest of the changes that are bad or really horrible...Sometimes we just wish that we can change the way the world work and that we had more time to do it the way that is supposedly best,or that we had actually stop and look around at what is going on and what have failed to notice that seems to evolve.
Everytime we hope for a change in someone or in something,our natural reaction is that things turn out for the better,hardly for the worse things do turn out for the worse,we always prayed that it would be "someone else" or "something else" and not us.However,what we hardly take precaution is just this--What happens if that "someone else" or "something else" is someone around us or something related to you?Especially when that "someone" or "something" is closest to our hearts?Just when we could not possibly imagine it,poof!Things have changed for the worse to us,other people that we know or the people close to us individually.
It all hits our hearts when the people around us have seem to change in a whirl...Some people say that anger brings out the real characters of people.Why do I talk about anger out of the blue?Because anger and hurt seems to be the main emotions happening inside us when the people close to us have change that may have harm us.So now my question to the ending of this entry would be this---Is that really who I am,with all this hurt and anger inside me due to the close friends around me that seem to be indifferent than before?Have I changed as well even though I only seem to see it in them?Everyone is a critic,yes.But what kind of person have I change into?Is it very drastic like the changes happening in those certain characters?
Hey ya..It's me..*grinss
We had a great time today together again,didn't we?Like we always do...haha...Reminiscing of how we met and the way things turned out to be...It is rather strange on how we cross each other's paths and changed each other's lives when we first met...
At first,things did not exactly been that fantastic when we first went steady with each other...Well,especially not for me..At least we begin to realize who are the true ones that will really "stand" by you..It was extremely heartbreaking from the start to actually find out that sometimes things or people aren't the way as you see them..Oh well,least we got to find out their true colors...
In any case,I am glad that I have you in my life now...I have always been grateful,but I guess I did not show it really well huh?Haha..Do not fret,it is not because I did not really like you,but more on the guilt consciences and that I did not want you to fall head over heels on me while I am not =X...Whereas for now,well,I would say that the current situations around us are lightening up..It really does seems like it...I suppose it is because you were there beside me,along with God to help us overcome the issues together =)
A new chapter is about to begin as next year is about to kick in soon...In anyways,I just want to say that I am happy that I have met you and grateful for all the things you have done for me,which also includes scarification...Thanks a lot for being there for me and for the concern you have showered upon me =))
Yup,I believe we can last long and that even though we cannot seem to help each other forget or stop feeling for our ex-steads,we can still do our best to work to our goal--and that is to make this relationship grow and last for an eternity...
The other day what I wanted to say was simply this...I am beginning to feel more for you...Like the saying say "Rome was not built in a day".Therefore I am willing to put more effort than before into this relationship...However,it would still be best for you to not fall so hard for me...Why do I say that?I just want to respect you that you will not feel that you have been played a fool by me or by any girl if anything should happen...[Pss,which I do not really believe that a break-up may take place...But you know,just a any case =)]
This post is to express my feelings and thoughts before I forget to tell you again...And in any case...This...is...NOT A BREAK-UP LETTER!!!!!!!!!AHHHH!!!How can you think that way?!?!I did not mention any thing about we going to our separate paths!!!!! =X...Crazy summo...hahaha!!!
yeah yeah yeah...haha so d*mn bloody happy lor...she pass her N lvl...tht make me so d*mn scared when i recieve her call cuz she said she "failed"...than i was totally shock....dunno wat 2 say...than she said she scored 7 i was...DOTZ...she bluff me...haha...i was like Yahoooooooo....she passed so happy...God really heard her n my pray request...so must Thank HIM 4 being there 4 her...lalala...haha...lalala...haha....lalala...i mad liao...haha