the 1st day i met my dear is on 17th oct which is on fri...i didn't imagine we will stead thought but we did :)...the thing tht attract me more abt my dear was the way she speaks not going 2 tell u guys,you find out urself...lol...i used to be a guy tht lost of word when i m speaking with someone face to face especially gals,in other word i m SHY...haha...the day i start chatting on the phone with my dear...i felt i m no longer shy but the way i look still the same SHY...
anyway the 1st date was fun cuz we walk from 1 plc to another...2 know more abt where we walk,u can check out on the previous blog...muahahaha....anyway ya tht day was oso very embarass cuz i fall down in 7/11 haha....than on the 2nd date is we when 2 watch harry potter...the golbet of fire...instead of exciting it turn out 2 b comedy...haha...anyway i was oso having fun on tht day cuz i manage 2 c my dear n talk 2 my dear face to face which i dun do it everyday..
the 3rd date was on 21nov...we when 2 play pool @ grandlink...i was kinda nervous cuz i m going 2 tell my dear something tht i have not been doing for 3yrs...haha...imagine hand is shaking...leg is shaking...AIYA all my body part is shaking la...haha...anyway we when 2 bugis with 2 ASSHOLE(they never clean the hole properly(STINK) )..not going 2 tell u who...while in the bus,i ask her...i thot she will reject me but she didn't i totally jump 4 joy but not in front of her la...i did in my hse...wahahaha...
i m really happy how i met my dear n how God has done for us...i hope We can grow together in spiritual...tht is 1 of the important thing tht we mus have in relationship...i m oso happy tht God has protecting us all the days...i didn't know God has really lighten most thing 4 us...wat i m trying 2 say is GOD has really been there with us through out the whole time...
i was damn angry 2day i was on msn my sis send me an a document ask me 2 read,i was piss off cuz the thing she is saying is tht she starting 2 give up on me...come on wth man,she treat my dear like wat already now give me attitude...wat she wans from me...
she wan me 2 give grattitude 2 my parent.i m trying 2 b open 2 my parent but when i m being open is like being stab on the chest is totally make me more sad n angry..obviously who like their parent 2 scold them...some more becuz of yesterday incident i m more furious...can't they give me a break than start scolding again y mus b all @ the same time...they r thinking there is no tml n they think i can absorb everything wat they say...i m ain't no superhero...Y mus they Pinme 2 the ground until i give up abt standing 4 my right...
i jus can't stand it but i really thank God for my dear...she is there 4 me when i really need someone...she willing 2 sacrifise time 4 me even thot she has 2 study early in the morning...really praise God for He have given me someone i can care n look upon too...i jus can't take it when my parent keep on hiding sometime from me...i wan the truth from them,even if i can't take it...y mus they ask ppl 2 tell me or tell other ppl when they themselves have mouth 2 talk n scold ppl...i m not a 5yrs old kid n oso not a baby...
i know they still care but can't they b open 4 me...i try 2 spent time but i know if i spent time with them there b lots of thing 2 quarrel...is kinda sad when someone u look upon looks down on u...
i jus take when my mom can't feel tht i m crying...i can't take it when my dad thing tht i m a childish son...i m a human to not a junk or trash...can't they jus tell me wat they wan n listen 2 my opinions....i can't take it...i always feel like dying cuz i can't take it in this world full of sin
BEN HERE....
Living as a christian for almost 8yrs,i have change to a good person cuz of my good buddy(i miss u guys...sob )...I wanna live as a strong Christian so tht God will be proud so does my family memeber n those who support me through out my walk with Him tht i have been through the trial tht i can't take it but they pulled me up when i m seriously drop dead...i know is hard to obey God's word...
When i get into ITE i started to get close to my classmate to show them how God change me but instead of i changing them...i m being changed cuz of some influent by friends n some other ppl who call themself christian...i tried to push myself but i failed...i came a cross this guy...on the 2nd day of sch...i heard he is from st gab...so i tot he is a christian so tht will b easiler to go forth to share gospel to those lost sheep...the sad thing was he used to be but he backslided cuz of some situation but tht never stop me from sharing to him the meaning of God
We slowly became close friend n bro...i used like him cuz he is the 1 who talk to me share his trouble and also give me morning call...soon time goes by i really felt God send him to ite so i can bring him back as a christian,i tried mean n way to change him...
TO BE CONTINUE....