If u say it tht way let it b...Let me jus warn u God see everyone of us...He knows who is right n wrong...Whoever go against Him will not b living peacfully but HELL...If u love tht someone go ahead no one will stop u even God won't stop...u wanna know y cuz is ur life...
Dun u ever come n tell everyone n especially GOD on how hurt or sad u r...cuz u know the ending b4...Did jesus tell His father saying I love u but i can't die on the cross cuz is too painful...can i jus 4get abt it n carry doing other thing tht make me feel easy...He go through with it y???Ask urself...
Take this incident n put it in our ex-relationship...doesn't it sound the same...saying is so hard 2 4get abt him...@ last u said let's break...is it more painful 2 me i lay my life cuz 2 try 2 make u 4get but did u...So dun u ever say u love me,if u did u will b like JESUS...
GOD i finally understand tht if i m in mich shoes...i cannot serve 2 master...even how hurt m i...i mus b like Jesus...let her go...If she wanna go with the world let it b...Cuz the life is her not mine...
Doc...say i now onli got 30% of leaving...he found out tht i got steriod in my body n oso emotion pro so the risk of op is very high chances of death...God perish me so i won't feel hurt cuz of her...
If u ever read until this part...This song is 4 U...
Chorus:I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut My weakness is that I care too much My scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down and I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain and I can't help to fix myself Your making me insane All I can say is
Chorus
I tried to help you once A kiss will only vise I saw you going down But you never realizedThat your drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassions in my nature Tonight is our last dance
Chorus
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down and I just wanna be aloneYou shouldn't ever came around Why don't you just go home?Cause your drowning in the water and I tried to grab your hand and I left my heart open but you didn't understandbut you didn't understand You fix yourself I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I triedI'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own lifeI can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
Chorus x2
2day is an unlucky day...I when 2 work than a guy from india ones a cup of coffe so i poured 4 him than my friend kanna complain by tht fcuking indian guy...He said the the cup is dirty...fucking ch** by* where the cup got dirty,my india partner ask me,i say the cup i took was from the kitchen...My partner was scolding n scolding n scolding like his own hse...
Everything when fine but alot of the ppl in my work plc complain abt rich indian even my manger who is oso an indian...While having our lunch...than my ex gf sms me saying tht she will b late...Another sms from her saying she will b there in 2min time so i rush 2 the toilet...2 have my nature call so i pass my hp 2 dex...she called so dex pick up the phone...after dex hang down the phone dex say she reach le so...i say let's go...
Reach there le...she called me again asking me where m i...i told her i reach le...@ last she found me...I dunno wat kinda expression shld i have so i jus act gracefully like nothing happen...The most angry part,i jus pointing out her acnes she immediatly dodge me...I was like wth i jus pointing why ur reaction so big...i was so damn piss off...i pretend not 2 show...come on la...i jus wanting 2 point out saying ur acnes has gone smaller...
dun need 2 give me so BIG reaction like i m going 2 touch u...Come on we both broke up le...u shld know me well too not onli ur tht someone...i jus can't believe it...Why u treat me like a stranger...u say we r good friend...ya like real can't even trust me in this small little thing than next time how???Dex was oso asking me y her reaction so big...i was so angry i told him...DUNNO LA...Dex reply mayb tht someone is ard tht y she dun like u get close to her...i reply mayb la,can u dun talk abt this anymore i m really hurt right now...i thot every single thing will b alright jus becuz of this TRUST...i feel damn hurt,some more in addition 2 tht someone else n our relationship...i feel more hurt...
let me tell u the meaning of my song in my blog...the title is ghost of u...the main part is NEVER COMING HOME...i m already stand firm but becuz of the trust u gave 2 me...i felt so little...we r once bgr,once a friend but we r still good friend i dun wan this 2 end... so a bro in christ i hope u think through have 2 give enough trust 2 everyone else...
2day was a day tht i dun wanna remember why,why,why n more WHY...God if this is gonna b this way let it b...i will fight for this sickening life n relationship tht i been through...
No mood...i myself oso dunno y mayb is becuz of tht someone else tht y i feel damn bloody hurt or else i think i can let u go easily...
Yesterday was a big shock 2 me tat I never imagine...I was so hurt tat I when drinking alone n drunk myself so tat I won't feel any pain but I didn't get drunk but instead I m still so awake...I was thinking abt mich all the time...When I by pass east coast expressway with my dad's car...I sudden remember abt tat someone...Jus now I was on my way 2 my club(Chinese swimming club)I sudden again remember abt tat someone again...
when I was on my way 2 gym I the gym was playing all techno song...All of a sudden when I settle down...They played I do(cherish you) sang by 98 degree used 2 b mich...In order not 2 think 2 much I when 2 buy alcohol...After I finish drinking a step in once again...They played my favorite song is oso a memorance of her again...the song is when you said you love me sang by josh groban...
I got so fed up I when 2 boil myself in jacuzzi...while talking with edwin I suddenly remember mich again...After chatting finish with edwin...I started playing my hp mp3...I have no idea y I started 2 listen n focus on both song soledad n if I let u go...I got so angry I threw my hp on the ground everyone was looking @ me but I give a damn...than I saw a gal ard 15 to 16 keep on looking @ me I was so piss off I keep up my phone n when to changing room n go home...
on my way home...it started drizzling than heavy rain than raining cats n dogs...I oso dun give a damn I drove my bike off with no jacket n helmet...I totally dun give a damn in anything now...I felt tat I have never had...so I think I shld carry on with this life...@ last I came home n confess to God tat I m in a wrong...I felt tat I m always in the wrong...sorry no mood shall stop here...take care...