Yesterday was a big shock 2 me tat I never imagine...I was so hurt tat I when drinking alone n drunk myself so tat I won't feel any pain but I didn't get drunk but instead I m still so awake...I was thinking abt mich all the time...When I by pass east coast expressway with my dad's car...I sudden remember abt tat someone...Jus now I was on my way 2 my club(Chinese swimming club)I sudden again remember abt tat someone again...
when I was on my way 2 gym I the gym was playing all techno song...All of a sudden when I settle down...They played I do(cherish you) sang by 98 degree used 2 b mich...In order not 2 think 2 much I when 2 buy alcohol...After I finish drinking a step in once again...They played my favorite song is oso a memorance of her again...the song is when you said you love me sang by josh groban...
I got so fed up I when 2 boil myself in jacuzzi...while talking with edwin I suddenly remember mich again...After chatting finish with edwin...I started playing my hp mp3...I have no idea y I started 2 listen n focus on both song soledad n if I let u go...I got so angry I threw my hp on the ground everyone was looking @ me but I give a damn...than I saw a gal ard 15 to 16 keep on looking @ me I was so piss off I keep up my phone n when to changing room n go home...
on my way home...it started drizzling than heavy rain than raining cats n dogs...I oso dun give a damn I drove my bike off with no jacket n helmet...I totally dun give a damn in anything now...I felt tat I have never had...so I think I shld carry on with this life...@ last I came home n confess to God tat I m in a wrong...I felt tat I m always in the wrong...sorry no mood shall stop here...take care...