well,i m suppose to run for my unit this coming fri maranthon for some reason my officer don't want me to run...my friend told me the reason is becuz i did not appear in my camp for more than 3days,got such regulation meh never heard of it...btw to all reader i m a lousy runner because no stamina but is because i m fitter than most ppl in my camp...my camp soldier has medical reason and i seriously dunno why i m here...haha...in any case i don't really consider i m lucky because i like combat instead of non-combat...Oo well God plan i suppose...hmm...i oso can consider lucky oso becuz i m a stay out soldier tht mean i can come out everyday,for those stay in are lock up in camp till fri evening or sat morning...back to the topic,i wanna go for the marathon this fri so i can escape from my camp...haix...i dunno whether i m lucky or not...if i go run tht day i may embarass myself infront of other camp cuz i can't run...haha...
2day finally getting beta from my sickness but still feel giddy maybe i sleep to much...but the weather still killing me...rain on n off...i think the weather is crying for julie & salina...lol...anyway i just hope everyone gets beta from all situation(sickness,bgr,studies,blah blah blah)haha...GOD BLESS
well 1st off,i got 3days mc because i fallen sick again...man...quit smoking really kills my immune system...last time can carry 150kg now 50kg oso cannot...wat wrong with me???m i going through tough time with so much in my mind???or is it just me trying to make excuses to smoke...we have just 1 life...live to the fullest,but trying make urself to die early doesn't make sense,right???no matter what i still believe my parents,my friend julie,salina n my buddy quitting together with me nick n xian...we believe we can live our life full of thrill and excitment without touching things that will kill us...
many day and months i have been thinking what is love,is love a suffer or happiness...it takes a long time just to forget about her,it makes me suffer even though i m the guy who make that decision...do i have a choice???NO i don't...plus i went to date a few gals after i broke up...the feeling i been through is diff,i felt refresh is it i have change my persepective or respective for gals or is this call happiness...alot of friend ask me to stop harping but the memories is still there...i finally understood wat is love...but isn't it too late???she is off with another guy tht she like when i was with her already,can u believe it...arghhh...anyway if i have a chance with another gal tht like me i will shower my stars of love on her...i promise...haha
meditation for everyone today...
if there is a word called love...wat is the thing tht u wanna protect n shower with love???